I'm perplexed, nervous, and also excited by some changes happening in my therapy. Curious y'alls thoughts, experiences. I've been seeing my therapist for about 2 years. We've always sat on opposite sides of the room (or have been virtual). Recently she has offered to come sit by me on the couch. I declined because closeness [...]
My Precious Child
There has been an inner storm brewing, I think, for quite a while now. Slow building insights, tiny little gut punches. I've sort of pocketed it all away. Watched the gray clouds pass overhead, waiting for meaning to make itself. I think that time came; something clicked into place today as one of my therapists [...]
Passed my Counselor Exam
Y'all (pardon my lapse into total Texan territory), I am so excited!!! I passed the NCE (National Counselor Exam)! I didn't get a chance to study because of the whole pregnant the last 9 months of school (worn the heck out) and then learning how to be a mom these last 3 months. All my [...]
Introducing Baby Carys: A Birth Story
This blog post has been a long time in the making. We had a rough traumatic birthing experience, so a lot of recovering has been in order. Baby and I are finally in a good place though so I want to tell my birth story and introduce her to everyone! First, the good bit: this [...]
Planning Birth as a survivor of SA
TW: talk of sexual assault/rape, please be in a safe place with support if this may act as a trigger. As you likely know by now, if you've read my previous posts, I am currently "as big as a house" pregnant. (Okay, okay, 35 (almost 36) weeks pregnant). I am discovering that as my estimated [...]
BPD and Boundaries
Forewarning, I am about to say some controversial shit! The general consensus when working with or being in relationship with someone who has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) is to have strong boundaries. What this often translates into is rigid boundaries. And, let me tell you, if that isn't the worst thing I've seen for people [...]
Eating Disorder and Pregnancy
I'm not sure I've spent much time writing about my history with disordered eating before but as I've progressed through my pregnancy it has proven to be a constant mental battle. In the past, I severely restricted my eating so I could lose about 60 or 70 pounds in 6 months. Before, during, and after [...]
Baby on the Way
Hey friends! I hope you'll still consider me a friend after all this time. I've been away for good reason, I promise. As you likely gathered from the title, I have a bun in the oven! And let me tell you, it has been one Hell of a roller coaster. Positive pregnancy tests and onesie [...]
Game Face
This week was my second week of Spravato treatments and my last week on the starter dose. Next week we increase. I'm nervous. On the low dose, I'm able to function through the effects of the medication. I keep my game face on; I work, see a few clients, teach my yoga, and attend to [...]
Spravato: A Personal Account
Hi friends, it has been ages since I've posted, huh? Life has been busy and I admit I've been neglecting my blog. I started working at a domestic violence shelter and crisis line. I've continued offering yoga classes for trauma survivors. And, I've been completing my first section of advanced practicum. It has been an [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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