Yoga IS my Glimmer of Hope

In the wake of so many losses -- some chosen, some not-- (my grandfather, my therapist, (impending) my job, (impending) my apartment, my plans for the future), I've been clinging to the only glimmer of hope I really feel like is consistently left in my life: yoga. I guess we can call this blog an [...]

An Attack on Genetics

Have you done one of those fancy DNA + health kits from places like ancestry.com and 23andme.com? I have and let me tell you, it makes me want to Thwart my genetics. I was lucky enough to get the health kit free from 23andme by signing up for a research study on bipolar and depression. The [...]

Cognitive Return to Easter

Today, I drove out to the lake to see where my father is living. The house is... lacking but sufficient. It's barely a step up from where we came from. But, it's temporary and it's by the lake. While I was there I was able to do some yoga by the lake which was nice. [...]

Loving Kindness and all that Jazz

Apparently on this day for the last several years I've been incredibly mindful and reflective. I shared this on my Facebook 3 years ago: I still believe in that world, the one held together by love. Even as I see the world around me becoming a darker place, I keep believing in the power of [...]

16 hours of sleep and PMDD

I'm going to do that thing Society says women shouldn't do: talk about my period. If this makes you squeamish then maybe don't read this one. If you're someone who struggles monthly, perhaps you'd like to read on. Last night/yesterday, I slept for 16 hours. This is coming from someone who typically just can't ever [...]

10 Reasons Why…

Okay, I'm about to brag on my "kids." I call them kids but really they are all 17 to 19 so in the eyes of our state, adults. However, in the eyes of me, their adoring teacher, they're still kids with sweet, loyal, loving hearts. So, without further adieu... 10 Reasons Why my Kids Make [...]

Who is that Stranger in the Mirror?

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and not recognized the person staring back at you? And I do mean staring because when this happens, I stare. I just look and look and hope that something will connect and I'll suddenly feel like I know the woman staring back at me. But no [...]

The Vanishing Girl

When I was a little girl, I used to practice being invisible. If I was invisible then I couldn't be yelled at, devalued, or hurt. At least that is what my childhood mind told me. Now, I know that doesn't make any sense, I am not, nor have I ever been, a vanishing girl. I was [...]

Patience is Difficult on the Long Journeys

Have you ever beat yourself up for not being further along than you thought you should be? Or, maybe you did get there but then you took 2 steps backward? Maybe you lost 12 pounds but then you gained 5 back. Maybe you managed not to cut for 2 months but then you slipped up [...]