Fit or Mis-fit: Finding Harmony with Mental Illness

How often do you find yourself in situations where you just don't quite "fit"? I've been thinking about this a lot lately in terms of mental health, specifically Complex PTSD. I haven't said anything yet because I've still been trying to come to terms with what this means in the context of my life but [...]

Abstract Longings for What Might Be

TW: this blog will cover issues of rape/sexual assault, so if you're not feeling particularly safe and supported please take care before reading. Every year someone inevitably tells me: "You know, they say, 'whatever you are doing to bring in the new year is what you will be doing for the rest of the year.'" [...]

Learning to Trust; or How A Flat Tire Taught Me to Take a Leap of Faith

I have given this idea of trust as existing on a spectrum quite a lot more thought since yesterday when my therapist asked me what trust looks like. Apparently, trust isn't something I do well. It's not something I have given much thought beyond: people can't be trusted (this includes myself) and trust leads to [...]

Wilting in the Shadow of God

With my grandfather's death and funeral I was reminded of the kind of Christianity my family practices. It isn't the kind that believes in grace as acceptance of all those who are not worthy. It isn't the kind that believes in mercy or forgiveness for every sinner. It is not the kind that believes in [...]

Meeting the Stories of Strangers with Loving Acceptance

Have you ever been standing somewhere waiting, perhaps in line at the grocery store, and someone begins telling you what seems to be their entire life story? They were recently diagnosed with some illness, they were recently laid off, their mother-in-law is coming into town and they’re a mess… the details always vary, of course, [...]

Love Others so Fiercely They Learn to Love Themselves

Recently a friend shared this on her social media site. At first, I was like, “yeah, okay, I can see this. We have to teach people how to treat us.” But the more it simmered in the back of my mind, the more I became bothered by the implications of this saying. First, it implies [...]

Ghostly Memories and Tangible Experience

Okay, so, I didn’t give you fair warning but you should know… sometimes my inspiration comes from shows like Grey’s Anatomy or This is Us. What can I say? I’m a sucker for TV drama. As it so happens today’s episode of Grey’s left me feeling particularly inspired for two reasons: one, the speech Avery gives on Grey’s behalf [...]