This day, the day that would have been my anniversary, 4 years ago I wrote this: "I realized tonight that I really need to stop apologizing for just being myself. I am a messy, complicated, sensitive, super emotional, overanalyzing human. I'm imperfect. I can be difficult. But, I'm also incredibly loyal. I'm probably excessively generous. [...]
Category: General
Write from your scars, not your wounds
A wise woman said to me today, "if you want to touch others you must write from your scars, not your wounds." I realized that the writing I have done recently, on both my blog and my Facebook, has been wound writing. And I realize that writing from this place may have had the very [...]
This isn’t where I thought I’d be
As I approach almost 30 years of life and I take inventory of where I have been and where I am, I realize, I am no where I thought I'd be. I never thought at 29 I would be waking up at 7:30am to break-up texts because I wasn't ready to be more physically affection. [...]
Haunted by Nightmares
I've spent years having sleepless nights filled with nightmares. I had almost gotten used to it but then medication offered me a little bit of hope. I stopped having as many nightmares. They were almost gone. And even when I would have them, they wouldn't hit me with such intensity. But, I think, maybe, I've [...]
My Mental Health Team
I think I've finally found the right combination of professionals. I saw my psychiatrist today and she was patient as I refused to produce a urine sample (after the $3220 debacle). And she was patient as I refused to give blood because I just didn't see the point (hello, depression). She was disappointed but gave [...]
Life Update
I've been doing a lot of waxing philosophical lately and I've got to tell you, it is an avoidance tactic. I kept trying to will myself into this amazing life of hope and enthusiasm. And, for a while it worked. But, not everything has been great. So, here is just a general life update. Group [...]
What Song Does Your Heart Sing?
The soul is in a dissonant state when too much time is spent denying one's true nature. We cannot be who others need and want us to be, only who we truly are at our core. If through being ourselves we are forced to stare down rejection, fear, anxiety, and insecurity-- so be it. There [...]
Crying Yogi(ni)
I cried today during morning yoga practice. I've been told this is something that happens but in a year and a half I've never experienced the rush of emotions people have told me about. I wondered if I was defective, to be quite honest. I wondered if I was really that shut off to my [...]
Finding My Edge
This week for yoga teacher training I had to write an essay about how I find my edge. In this case edge is being defined as, "a place of comfortable discomfort, where growing and healing happens." However, when I think of edge, the word is riddled with negative connotations. Edge to me is the sharp [...]
In the Midst of “No”
I've been thinking a lot lately about how our culture defines success. And, how there is often this "good things come to those who wait" mentality. But I think the truth is, good things come to those who put themselves out there and who risk being told "no." We have to be willing to accept [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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