Yesterday was a difficult day. I received my appraisal from my supervisor. She marked me down significantly for my absences, some of which were completely out of my control. I felt punished for something that was, in part, not completely my choice. Not to say I am completely blameless here. I know I have chosen [...]
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I am not an Imposter
I am not an imposter among survivors. I am not a victim. The other day a former friend called me a victim, told me I'd always be that way, that I push people away, that I'm hard to help. I let myself feel hurt and victimized by those statements. I let her words become prophetic. [...]
From ‘No’ to ‘Yes’
I'm not talking about consent here. When it comes to consent, no means no. Period. What I am talking about here is turning an internal no into a yes. Taking the no we say to experiences and emotions and turning that into a yes, saying yes to feeling and experiencing all the things we are [...]
Wanderlust: Not a Total Bust
This morning, during my coffee routine, I wrote about being grumbly and up early for Wanderlust. I made light of being up before the light because I was excited to try something new. But, Texas had other plans for we yogis today. It was a windy 40 something degrees. Texans are not used to this [...]
Wanderlust and the Morning
I am up exceptionally early this morning (before 6am if you want to know what early is for me) so that I can have my protein shake before I wander off to wanderlust. If you don't know what wanderlust is and don't wish to hault your reading to Google, it is a mindfulness triathlon. 5k, [...]
Mara: Marred by Delusions, Finding Inner Peace
Those of us who have been in therapy probably all know very well the phrases, "you must be able to sit with the emotions." Or, "there is only going through the emotions." Or some variation on the same theme. The idea that we have to stop avoiding our emotions, stop dissociating from them if there [...]
An Attack on Genetics
Have you done one of those fancy DNA + health kits from places like ancestry.com and 23andme.com? I have and let me tell you, it makes me want to Thwart my genetics. I was lucky enough to get the health kit free from 23andme by signing up for a research study on bipolar and depression. The [...]
Cognitive Return to Easter
Today, I drove out to the lake to see where my father is living. The house is... lacking but sufficient. It's barely a step up from where we came from. But, it's temporary and it's by the lake. While I was there I was able to do some yoga by the lake which was nice. [...]
If People Had Warning Signs
If people came with warning signs, what would yours say? I think often about this, about what people might need warning about when approaching me. As if I were a highway to somewhere and my landmarks needed explication. As if all who approach might need instruction on how to handle what's ahead. As if there is [...]
Loving Kindness and all that Jazz
Apparently on this day for the last several years I've been incredibly mindful and reflective. I shared this on my Facebook 3 years ago: I still believe in that world, the one held together by love. Even as I see the world around me becoming a darker place, I keep believing in the power of [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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