Dissociative Experiences Scale and My Latest EMDR Session

I had EMDR therapy yesterday. We are still doing a lot of preparing for the really difficult work. As a part of that K gave me a dissociative experiences scale to fill out. When I did it the first time I answered with the mentality of... none of this is me at all. That was [...]

What is Normal?

Yesterday in my Advanced Psychopathology class we revisited the idea of normalcy and abnormality in relation to mental health. The professor showed us this slide: And he assured us that all of us were "normal" because the department had viewed our applications to the program and we all got in, so nothing sent up any [...]

General Update

My life lately has been in a constant state of fluctuation but I'm finally starting to feel like things are settling down. I figured in light of that I would write a general update post, you know one of the ones that is all nicely broken down into sections. I will bold the really important bits so [...]

Progression in EMDR therapy

Hello loves, It's been a while since I've mentioned anything about my progress in EMDR therapy, as I've mostly just been building the relationship with this new therapist. I was definitely skeptical of her for a while. But, she is starting to grow on me. I've still asked J (my group therapist, who is leaving [...]

An Update (because I can’t sleep)

Hello loves, It is currently 4:11 am where I am located. And, I can't sleep. So, I figured I would give everyone an update. I know I have been pretty quiet lately. I've just been trying to recharge after my summer semester. School: I will start with school since it is fresh on my mind. [...]

Finding an EMDR Therapist, Part 2

I heeded the wise words of you, my fellow bloggers, and went ahead and made an appointment with another EMDR therapist. I just really did not have a good gut feeling about the second one. I don't think I could count on her to help me contain anything that would become overwhelming, should it become [...]

Finding an EMDR Therapist

So, I mentioned in an earlier blog that I was going to look into EMDR. I had already seen one therapist and after intake she insisted that I do comprehensive DBT because there is 24/7 access to the therapists. I do not, however, want 24/7 access to anyone. I value my autonomy and independence. I'm [...]

An Update

A lot has changed for me recently. I've not been posting much because I've been in a mental space where I feel like everything I say just doesn't come out right, so it is best not to even bother. But, I miss the wordpress community, so I am going to try and summarize where things [...]

Life as a Teenage Beauty Queen or Creating the Feminine Machine

This is an old one and a long one but hopefully worth the read still: I would like to invite you on a journey, not across space, but across time, my time, the time I spent living in the body of a teenage beauty queen. This isn't science fiction; there won't be a time machine, [...]

More Wisdom from my Younger Self

This day, the day that would have been my anniversary, 4 years ago I wrote this: "I realized tonight that I really need to stop apologizing for just being myself. I am a messy, complicated, sensitive, super emotional, overanalyzing human. I'm imperfect. I can be difficult. But, I'm also incredibly loyal. I'm probably excessively generous. [...]