"Why English? The other day during an interview I was asked, "Why English?". I gave the standard "I love reading. I'm good at research. I've always been pretty drawn to writing." Not lies. Not the truth. I had never really considered why I chose English before; it was just something I did, not a choice [...]
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Friendship in the Tsunami of Sadness
Today the weather matches my mood. I am a tsunami of Sadness. I am, quite frankly suicidal in the has a plan and could act on it kind of way. Today I contemplated suicide in a way more serious than I have in ages. Had it not been for the consistent company of my best [...]
Today: A Gun in Our School
Today a kid brought a BB gun to the school where I teach. Fortunately, it wasn't a "real" gun and fortunately he was caught, though I'm sure he didn't intend to do any damage. I think it was for the accolades, though it concerns me that this would be an action taken to receive accolades. [...]
I am not a single story
I am not every negative thing that has happened to me or been said about me. I am a patchwork girl. I am pieced together from fragments of memories, experiences, and stories. I have been created by all the people I’ve ever loved or hated. And all the people who have loved and hated me. In [...]
The Demons Inside Us
A fellow blogger recently drew her "monster" as a part of her therapy homework (I believe) and it inspired me to do a bit of my own drawing (as I've felt like something has been off all day, just unsettled). I grew up in a ridiculously religious household and was always told demons were the [...]
A Lifetime of Running from My Own Presence
Therapy is a lot like school: there is homework. But, it's life homework. Presumably the kind of thing that makes us better versions of who we already are. I don't know. I haven't decided if there is truth to that but I'm doing the homework anyway. Because I've always been a tenacious student and I'll [...]
Healthy Risks? Or, Have I Lost my Mind?
Lately, I've been really putting myself out there. I've felt lost and I'm trying so hard to find my place, to find my way, to find the path fate wants me on. Because right now, I'm not on that path. I can feel it in my bones. I'm not using the gifts I've been given. [...]
On the right path
It would seem that the incidents of late have pushed me onto a slightly different life path than I intended for myself but perhaps that is the "right" path afterall. I'm currently taking a career counseling class as part of my Master's program. And one of the assignments (though it wasn't actually listed as an [...]
The Other Side of Silence
This one is for the women (and yes, men, too) who aren't ready to talk, who aren't ready to divulge the details of probably the worst days of their lives. It is for the people who bravely wake up, day after day, and carry on despite the weight of their secrets. This one is to [...]
Promise I’m Grateful
Hello loves, Many of you have nominated me for blogger awards recently, which I am endlessly grateful for. I've only been blogging for a few months now, so it's incredibly moving to be seen, heard, and connected with this great community. I just to write this as a place holder for the actual nomination post [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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