I am up exceptionally early this morning (before 6am if you want to know what early is for me) so that I can have my protein shake before I wander off to wanderlust. If you don't know what wanderlust is and don't wish to hault your reading to Google, it is a mindfulness triathlon. 5k, [...]
Yoga IS my Glimmer of Hope
In the wake of so many losses -- some chosen, some not-- (my grandfather, my therapist, (impending) my job, (impending) my apartment, my plans for the future), I've been clinging to the only glimmer of hope I really feel like is consistently left in my life: yoga. I guess we can call this blog an [...]
Mara: Marred by Delusions, Finding Inner Peace
Those of us who have been in therapy probably all know very well the phrases, "you must be able to sit with the emotions." Or, "there is only going through the emotions." Or some variation on the same theme. The idea that we have to stop avoiding our emotions, stop dissociating from them if there [...]
Maybe there is hope…
Just a general update, nothing wise here. I had another session with Dr. W yesterday. As well as an appointment with a different psych. Needless to say, yesterday was emotionally draining. The psych was less gentle than my usual psych. So, when she said things that implied I wasn't trying enough because I broke down [...]
Chesed and the Therapist as Enlightened (Empathic) Witness
First and foremost, I admit, I am not Jewish but for this blog I do want to talk about a concept that is familiar to Judaism. If I mess this up in anyway, please forgive me for my ignorance and feel free to educate me on my mistaken understanding. I recently read of this idea, Chesed; it [...]
An Attack on Genetics
Have you done one of those fancy DNA + health kits from places like ancestry.com and 23andme.com? I have and let me tell you, it makes me want to Thwart my genetics. I was lucky enough to get the health kit free from 23andme by signing up for a research study on bipolar and depression. The [...]
Protected: A Letter to my Ex-Therapist
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Daring to Explore the Cognitive Dissonance
Have you ever dared to explore your own cognitive distortions, your own cognitive dissonance? It's a scary undertaking. Facing one's own shadow. Cognitive Dissonance is the dirty fiend that leads us to repeat unhealthy patterns over and over again. Cognitive Dissonance is an enigmatic trap. The more we think something, the more we bring about the [...]
Loving Yourself When You’re the Toxic Person
We are, on occasion, going to be the Toxic person in our relationships. This is probably one of the hardest things to admit to ourselves because let's be real, it is easier if the hurt is the other person's fault. But sometimes, it just isn't. Sometimes it is us reenacting past behaviors, creating very real present [...]
Cognitive Return to Easter
Today, I drove out to the lake to see where my father is living. The house is... lacking but sufficient. It's barely a step up from where we came from. But, it's temporary and it's by the lake. While I was there I was able to do some yoga by the lake which was nice. [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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