Abstract Longings for What Might Be

TW: this blog will cover issues of rape/sexual assault, so if you're not feeling particularly safe and supported please take care before reading. Every year someone inevitably tells me: "You know, they say, 'whatever you are doing to bring in the new year is what you will be doing for the rest of the year.'" [...]

Learning to Trust; or How A Flat Tire Taught Me to Take a Leap of Faith

I have given this idea of trust as existing on a spectrum quite a lot more thought since yesterday when my therapist asked me what trust looks like. Apparently, trust isn't something I do well. It's not something I have given much thought beyond: people can't be trusted (this includes myself) and trust leads to [...]

Wilting in the Shadow of God

With my grandfather's death and funeral I was reminded of the kind of Christianity my family practices. It isn't the kind that believes in grace as acceptance of all those who are not worthy. It isn't the kind that believes in mercy or forgiveness for every sinner. It is not the kind that believes in [...]

Seeing the Unseen; or, the Package Hidden Under the Welcome Mat

This week Amazon delivered a rather substantial package to my apartment and, because the delivery man thought I was not home, the package was placed under my welcome mat. Can we consider for a second how ludicrous this actually seems? I'm not particularly good at measurements, so I'm sure I can't accurately convey to you [...]

Putting Humanity Back in the Classroom

Teachers are humans. We are real flesh and blood people, made up of thoughts, feelings, memories, and all of the complexity that entails. And, guess what? So are our students. When my students come to me at the beginning of the year, they do not come as blank slates. A freshly packaged canvas awaiting the [...]

When Hurt People, Hurt People

I'm about to do something I never do... post right after a therapy session and while I am still feeling raw about an experience I had today. Actually, an experience that has been prolonged for weeks. However, resolution was just achieved today. And, sometimes, resolution sucks. It's almost better being in limbo, not knowing if something is [...]

Meeting the Stories of Strangers with Loving Acceptance

Have you ever been standing somewhere waiting, perhaps in line at the grocery store, and someone begins telling you what seems to be their entire life story? They were recently diagnosed with some illness, they were recently laid off, their mother-in-law is coming into town and they’re a mess… the details always vary, of course, [...]

Irony, Imprinted Words, and Complicated Relationships

Now that you're probably thoroughly confused and misled by the title of this blog, I'm going to attempt to conceptualize something that's still ridiculously abstract in my mind. I've been thinking a lot lately about how words imprint themselves in our minds; how they create not only memories but something else. Something more powerful, more [...]

Just a Touch of Trust

I’m going to invite you briefly into my “morning routine.” It’s been a point of contention in my romantic relationships but it’s one thing I’m not willing to falter on because it’s a necessity for my continued functioning and productivity. I’d wilt like a flower with too much sun and not enough water otherwise. Each [...]