I showed Dr. W my picture of leaves on a stream (from her first analogy, find more here: A Look into my 3rd Therapy Session). She was so pleased that I took the initiative to draw this out that she gave me a new one to draw this week. -_- If you're wondering, yes, I drew [...]
Tag: anxiety
Listen to Truth
I have this corner on the old school blackboard in my classroom that has refrigerator magnets with words. The corner is simple. It says, "create." When the kids are bored they tend to go to the board and just randomly make poems or art with the words. The internet went down yesterday, so one student [...]
Difficult Day, Healthy Choices
Yesterday was a difficult day. I received my appraisal from my supervisor. She marked me down significantly for my absences, some of which were completely out of my control. I felt punished for something that was, in part, not completely my choice. Not to say I am completely blameless here. I know I have chosen [...]
Yoga IS my Glimmer of Hope
In the wake of so many losses -- some chosen, some not-- (my grandfather, my therapist, (impending) my job, (impending) my apartment, my plans for the future), I've been clinging to the only glimmer of hope I really feel like is consistently left in my life: yoga. I guess we can call this blog an [...]
Daring to Explore the Cognitive Dissonance
Have you ever dared to explore your own cognitive distortions, your own cognitive dissonance? It's a scary undertaking. Facing one's own shadow. Cognitive Dissonance is the dirty fiend that leads us to repeat unhealthy patterns over and over again. Cognitive Dissonance is an enigmatic trap. The more we think something, the more we bring about the [...]
Patience is Difficult on the Long Journeys
Have you ever beat yourself up for not being further along than you thought you should be? Or, maybe you did get there but then you took 2 steps backward? Maybe you lost 12 pounds but then you gained 5 back. Maybe you managed not to cut for 2 months but then you slipped up [...]
Meandering Down the Path of Wonder
Do you ever wonder what your life would have been like if a certain thing never happened or you had never met a certain person or if you were somewhere else at a specific time? I think this is natural right? To wonder about how things could have been different. But, for some of us we [...]
Uninhibited Emotional Vulnerability
I wrote this on this day 4 years ago: "I sometimes wonder if having moments of uninhibited emotional vulnerability (or just complete raw honesty) with/at/towards people is a mistake, if people don't know what to do with that kind of openness or just don't actually want that much honesty. If those are things best left [...]
Friendship in the Tsunami of Sadness
Today the weather matches my mood. I am a tsunami of Sadness. I am, quite frankly suicidal in the has a plan and could act on it kind of way. Today I contemplated suicide in a way more serious than I have in ages. Had it not been for the consistent company of my best [...]
Fit or Mis-fit: Finding Harmony with Mental Illness
How often do you find yourself in situations where you just don't quite "fit"? I've been thinking about this a lot lately in terms of mental health, specifically Complex PTSD. I haven't said anything yet because I've still been trying to come to terms with what this means in the context of my life but [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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