BPD and Boundaries

Forewarning, I am about to say some controversial shit! The general consensus when working with or being in relationship with someone who has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) is to have strong boundaries. What this often translates into is rigid boundaries. And, let me tell you, if that isn't the worst thing I've seen for people [...]

New Podcast

I am super excited to see where this goes. I decided to create a podcast... because I can. 🤷‍♀️ This is what I am hoping: 1) that it be a place where people can feel free to submit the questions they've always wanted to ask their therapists but have been too afraid or too ashamed. [...]

Missing a Therapist

I think there are probably quite a lot of people out there who are wondering: why do I miss my therapist so much between sessions? Or, maybe, like me, their therapist has moved states, referred out, or some other variation of ending the relationship; and, they find themselves feeling a deep sense of grief they [...]

I’m Human and I’m not Sorry

After my first year in the Clinical Mental Health Counseling graduate program at UT Tyler, I recieved this as my annual review results: I met expectations and exceeded expectations on every category. This year, the faculty decided that I did not meet expectations in almost all areas. These are the results I recieved today: If [...]

Gratitude and The Sh*t I Don’t Want to Say

This post serves two purposes: I want to celebrate the incredible gifts I've received in therapy but I also want to explore my story, the shit I don't want to say. I've been down lately, in one of the valleys of my recovery. I've built this incredible foundation in my team of mental health professionals [...]

Back to Mental Health Routine

Yesterday I had ALL the mental health appointments. It was so much mental health focus. I had a video session with my group therapist to process some relational stuff there because I've found myself crossing boundaries with her, in a way that doesn't feel authentic to who I believe myself to be. So, we discussed [...]

Hugs in Therapy

Today was a day of therapy. I saw K at 1 today. We talked a lot about my different parts. She said she wanted to keep things simple today. She reassured me that I did a good job talking through things today and that I felt less resistant in session today than I have in [...]

Another EMDR session

Tuesday I saw H, the therapist who is covered by my insurance. She was nice. She seemed smart. But, I chose not to make a follow-up appointment. I know I could be saving a lot of money every month but it means something to me that K tries so hard to make sure my needs [...]

Finally, Fighting for Myself

So, I’ve said I don’t know how many times on here that I really wish that I could do individual therapy with J, that I trust her and feel a sense of security with her and that she gets me. Blah, blah. All the good things. But, it was complicated because I am working K, [...]

General Update

My life lately has been in a constant state of fluctuation but I'm finally starting to feel like things are settling down. I figured in light of that I would write a general update post, you know one of the ones that is all nicely broken down into sections. I will bold the really important bits so [...]