Change is bloody hard. Sometimes it feels downright impossible. This is especially true for positive, lasting change. I've been thinking a lot about this since quitting therapy with C. I keep asking myself, "did I bail for the right reasons?" Because I dedicated myself to the therapy process. I told myself I was going to [...]
Tag: mental health
Uninhibited Emotional Vulnerability
I wrote this on this day 4 years ago: "I sometimes wonder if having moments of uninhibited emotional vulnerability (or just complete raw honesty) with/at/towards people is a mistake, if people don't know what to do with that kind of openness or just don't actually want that much honesty. If those are things best left [...]
Where I Come From: A Rise from the Lower Class
Sometimes we have take a long hard look at where we came from to appreciate how far we have come, where we are and where we are going. Or, at least, that's what they say. So, as I am currently in life repair mode, I took a trip back home to remind myself of how [...]
Healthy Risks? Or, Have I Lost my Mind?
Lately, I've been really putting myself out there. I've felt lost and I'm trying so hard to find my place, to find my way, to find the path fate wants me on. Because right now, I'm not on that path. I can feel it in my bones. I'm not using the gifts I've been given. [...]
A Teacher’s Perspective on Mass Shootings in American Schools
If you've read my very first blog post then you know I'm a teacher. You also might know that I'm someone with a deep well of emotion. I am quite gifted at numbing those emotions, usually. But when it comes to things like mass shootings in schools, I come undone. I feel pain that is [...]
Dehumanized: I Become My Mental Illness
The last place one would expect to be dehumanized and belittled because of Mental Illness is at a hospital. Or, at least that's what I would have thought. Apparently I was wrong. The medical community doesn't have compassion for people with mental health issues. They're clueless. And, they're causing more harm than they're doing good. [...]
You’ve Got to be Willing to Risk Failure
Tonight I realized two things: 1) If I want to see myself grow, I've got to be willing to risk failure. I have to be willing to venture into the unknown, to walk away from all my familiar surroundings. 2) For years, I have been adamant that I wouldn't believe in God because God was [...]
Fit or Mis-fit: Finding Harmony with Mental Illness
How often do you find yourself in situations where you just don't quite "fit"? I've been thinking about this a lot lately in terms of mental health, specifically Complex PTSD. I haven't said anything yet because I've still been trying to come to terms with what this means in the context of my life but [...]
When Hurt People, Hurt People
I'm about to do something I never do... post right after a therapy session and while I am still feeling raw about an experience I had today. Actually, an experience that has been prolonged for weeks. However, resolution was just achieved today. And, sometimes, resolution sucks. It's almost better being in limbo, not knowing if something is [...]
Meeting the Stories of Strangers with Loving Acceptance
Have you ever been standing somewhere waiting, perhaps in line at the grocery store, and someone begins telling you what seems to be their entire life story? They were recently diagnosed with some illness, they were recently laid off, their mother-in-law is coming into town and they’re a mess… the details always vary, of course, [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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