I'm perplexed, nervous, and also excited by some changes happening in my therapy. Curious y'alls thoughts, experiences. I've been seeing my therapist for about 2 years. We've always sat on opposite sides of the room (or have been virtual). Recently she has offered to come sit by me on the couch. I declined because closeness [...]
Tag: ptsd
Passed my Counselor Exam
Y'all (pardon my lapse into total Texan territory), I am so excited!!! I passed the NCE (National Counselor Exam)! I didn't get a chance to study because of the whole pregnant the last 9 months of school (worn the heck out) and then learning how to be a mom these last 3 months. All my [...]
Life is still happening
I feel like I've been doing an awful job of keeping up with my blog lately. A lot has happened in my life. K and I had our last session. So heartbreaking. I had my first session with J, since K left. It was decent, nothing to phone home about. I'm just hoping the connection [...]
Hiking Therapy
Recently, walk and talk therapy has become a thing. In the wake of K leaving (she and I have our last appt. June 20th), I've considered whether or not I want to stick with EMDR. And, I've considered things like walk and talk therapy because I love the idea of bringing the progress outdoors, where [...]
Gratitude and The Sh*t I Don’t Want to Say
This post serves two purposes: I want to celebrate the incredible gifts I've received in therapy but I also want to explore my story, the shit I don't want to say. I've been down lately, in one of the valleys of my recovery. I've built this incredible foundation in my team of mental health professionals [...]
My Truth: Living w/Passive SI
Today was a big day for me. It may not be considered a big day for most people but for me, for someone who has struggled for decades with passive suicidal ideation, it is a big deal what I accomplished in these last few minutes. See this line of pills bottles: I've been holding onto [...]
EMDR today
I haven't been sharing much about my therapy journey anymore because, well, it has mostly been about putting out the fires in my present life. But, today I got to process some past stuff with EMDR. I've been in therapy for several months now and we have used EMDR to process some present traumas but [...]
Asking for what we need
I had therapy with K yesterday. I was going to tell her that it had to be our last session, that I couldn't afford anymore. But then, she just said and did all the right things. I couldn't walk away. So, we set an appointment for 3 weeks from now, when I should have money [...]
Ghosts
Do you believe in ghosts? Yes, I mean the kind that go bump in the night. The specters caught between real and not real, past and present, energy diverted. I just watched Haunting of Hill House on Netflix and it made me think. I thought of the fine line between what's real and what's not. [...]
A lot of change…
Again, it has been a while since I've written. I think the last I checked in, it was on the J thing (me trying to persuade her to have me for individual). Her first response was via phone, so I couldn't share that. But, after some deep soul searching I realized what I needed from [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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