I've spent years having sleepless nights filled with nightmares. I had almost gotten used to it but then medication offered me a little bit of hope. I stopped having as many nightmares. They were almost gone. And even when I would have them, they wouldn't hit me with such intensity. But, I think, maybe, I've [...]
Tag: trauma
Life Update
I've been doing a lot of waxing philosophical lately and I've got to tell you, it is an avoidance tactic. I kept trying to will myself into this amazing life of hope and enthusiasm. And, for a while it worked. But, not everything has been great. So, here is just a general life update. Group [...]
What Song Does Your Heart Sing?
The soul is in a dissonant state when too much time is spent denying one's true nature. We cannot be who others need and want us to be, only who we truly are at our core. If through being ourselves we are forced to stare down rejection, fear, anxiety, and insecurity-- so be it. There [...]
Crying Yogi(ni)
I cried today during morning yoga practice. I've been told this is something that happens but in a year and a half I've never experienced the rush of emotions people have told me about. I wondered if I was defective, to be quite honest. I wondered if I was really that shut off to my [...]
Protected: First Day of a New Chapter
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A Secret and Thirteen Reasons Why
Most of you, by now, probably know the second season of Thirteen Reasons Why was released last Friday. Despite my better judgement I binge watched the whole season that weekend. And while the season does some obvious things to start conversation (how they handled sexual assault, how they talked about the athletes role in those [...]
Therapy Homework: “Love Letters” Technique
I am not going to lie, I was going to adamantly not do this weeks therapy homework. When Dr. W gave me the paper that says, "The purpose of this love letter is to express and resolve all the negative feelings that prevent you from experiencing and sharing the love you feel deep inside", I thought, "this [...]
Listen to Truth
I have this corner on the old school blackboard in my classroom that has refrigerator magnets with words. The corner is simple. It says, "create." When the kids are bored they tend to go to the board and just randomly make poems or art with the words. The internet went down yesterday, so one student [...]
A Look into my 3rd Therapy Session
As you know by now, I started therapy with a new therapist (a clinical psychologist) recently. There isn't that intense draw to her that I felt with C but she does know how to ask the right questions and I do feel less like I am at risk of being judged by her, so these [...]
Difficult Day, Healthy Choices
Yesterday was a difficult day. I received my appraisal from my supervisor. She marked me down significantly for my absences, some of which were completely out of my control. I felt punished for something that was, in part, not completely my choice. Not to say I am completely blameless here. I know I have chosen [...]
Her Patchwork Heart 
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